04.01.2015
Media

Anonymous

I was 17 years old, and had been with my boyfriend for 5 years. We were young and dumb, and I never thought I would actually get pregnant. I was very wrong.

After 2 months of having unprotected sex, I began to feel extremely thirsty and having intense cravings. I took a pregnancy test and was shocked to see 2 lines. I wasn’t sad, I was actually shocked and almost happy because I always wanted to be a mother. I told my boyfriend and he assured me we would be ok. We started to think of names and we’re really getting excited, that is, until I told my mom. She went off the deep end, physically attacked me calling me a slut and a whore. She said that if I didn’t get an abortion I couldn’t live there because I was an embarrassment to my family. I had no job, no car, and no place to go. I would wake up in the middle of the night with my mom 2 inches from my face, telling me I was a whore and I was going to hell. I was scared out of my mind and thought that my only option was to get the abortion. I stopped talking to my boyfriend because I didn’t want him to know and I was so upset about the entire situation. I got the abortion at 9 weeks pregnant, and it was the most emotionally and physically painful thing I’ve ever been through. I regret it every single day of my life and cry all the time, and it has been almost 8 years. My boyfriend and I are still together and expecting a baby in 4 weeks. I will never forgive myself for what I did to that poor innocent baby. and don’t think he will either. I hope one girl will read this and know that there are other sources she can turn to, and only you should be the one to make that decision for yourself. I wish somebody would have told me those things.